“ Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at my doorposts." Proverbs 8:33-35
"But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me."
In late 2007, the pastor of the church we attended encouraged us to choose a word for the year 2008. This word could really be anything we wanted it to be. It could be a goal we were aiming for. A prayer request. A habit we wanted to break. He told us to choose a word and spend the year meditating on it. I prayed about it for a few weeks and finally settled on the word change. Little did I know that the change that was in store was a move from Orlando, Florida to Bandung, Indonesia. Everything in our life changed that year.
In 2009 I prayed and decided on the word home. Again, I wasn't sure what I was really hoping for, but I felt deep in my heart that my focus was to be home. And just a few months into the year, God laid it on my heart to homeschool. Home was definitely the focus!
In 2010 I was still scrambling to choose a word. And then on January 1, I read in my Daily Light, “Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus.” 1 Corinthians 9:24-25; Hebrews 12:1-2. And I knew that my word for 2010 was run. That year, I started running. Not with my feet in tennis shoes but rather, in my heart. My heart started racing—away from what the world expects of me and to what God expects of me. It was an amazing year and I am still feeling the effects of things that God turned in my heart and mind.
The year 2011 brought a new word: rooted. The word came from the verses listed above. I wanted so much—longed for, ached for—to be rooted in God's word. Tomorrow I will share more about my year focusing on being rooted. It was an amazing year!
In November, I started praying about my word for 2012. I had a few ideas but none of them felt like it was exactly what the Lord was telling me. So I waited, prayed, and was confident that in His time, God would share my word with me.
"Watch and Wait."
The words were in my heart but they didn't make a lot of sense. But they kept coming to me. "Watch and wait." I resisted. I didn't have a vision for it or a way to focus on it. I didn't know what the Lord was trying to tell me. And yet it continued, "Watch and wait." I figured I would at least think about it. And then something happened and I had no choice. I had to watch and wait. I didn't know what was going to happen. I could do nothing to control it. I was spending weeks in the unknown and any time I started to fret, my heart heard, "Watch and wait." And so, a few days before the new year began, I said "Okay, in 2012 I will "Watch and Wait."
Since then, it has started to make more sense. This year is going to be one of great transition and change for our family. We will moving back to the States in June and we have no idea what the future holds. We might be in the States for a year. It might be longer. I suppose it could even be shorter. We don't know. We don't know where Jason will work. We don't know what we will drive. We don't know where we will attend church, who our friends will be, or what it will be like to bring our children to a country they haven't seen in four years. But we do know that the Lord is with us, that He has led us in this direction, and the year 2012 will be one for watching and waiting. We will watch what the Lord is going to do in our lives and through our lives. We are going to wait patiently for the answers we so desperately want to hear. We will watch and wait, remaining rooted in Him and His Word. 2012 is going to be an amazing year!