Ecclesiastes 3 states that there is a time for everything. In verse 7, we read “…A time to be silent and a time to speak.“
I didn’t intend to take an almost six month break from blogging. But as often is the case, life happens.
It started with this bit of news…
And with that news came a lot of sickness. And I do mean a lot.
And after a few months of feeling like I wanted to die, my heart had a lot of work to do. God was taking me through some deep valleys in life and I had no words.
And then slowly…oh so slowly…my heart started to find some healing and it started to refill. As it did, the words started to fill my mind once again. The Lord was shaping me and changing me and patiently waiting for perseverance that tribulation brings and the character that perseverance brings and the hope that character brings and He was waiting for me grasp the reality that, “Hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us” (Romans 5:3-5).
And in that time, I felt very deeply that it was “A time be silent.” I didn’t write here. I stayed away from most social media. Other than a few blessed conversations with a good friend, most of God’s working in my heart was taking place in the secret and in quiet and like Mary in Luke 2, “[I] treasured all these things, pondering them in [my] heart.”
However, Ecclesiastes says that there is a time for everything. ”A time to be silent and a time to speak.” And in searching my heart and praying and looking to the Lord for how He would have me use my time, thoughts, talents, and personality, I feel the freedom (and even the push) to once again start writing. To share with others the love I have for my family, the lessons God is teaching me as I embrace this role of motherhood, and to encourage those of you walking similar paths that the Lord is on your side and His plans for you are good, right, and perfect. I make so many mistakes as I seek to be the woman God created me to be, this mother He created me to be. But if me sharing my failures, my successes, and the questions of my heart helps even one of you (and many of your so graciously have shared with me that they have), then I am willing to risk opening my heart (and the criticism that can come with it) in this little space of mine. I’d like to cower like Moses, but I will instead trust in the words of Amy Carmichael who said something along the lines of, “If God can make a donkey speak, then perhaps he can use me.”
I’ll be back in the not-too-distant future with more of an update on the last six months and what’s happening now. In the meantime, I’ll just let you know that it’s a boy and he’s expected to make his appearance at the end of March!