A Time to be Silent

Ecclesiastes 3 states that there is a time for everything. In verse 7, we read "...A time to be silent and a time to speak.

I didn't intend to take an almost six month break from blogging.  But as often is the case, life happens.

It started with this bit of news...

And with that news came a lot of sickness. And I do mean a lot.

And after a few months of feeling like I wanted to die, my heart had a lot of work to do. God was taking me through some deep valleys in life and I had no words.

And then slowly...oh so slowly...my heart started to find some healing and it started to refill. As it did, the words started to fill my mind once again.  The Lord was shaping me and changing me and patiently waiting for perseverance that tribulation brings and the character that perseverance brings and the hope that character brings and He was waiting for me grasp the reality that, "Hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us" (Romans 5:3-5).

And in that time, I felt very deeply that it was "A time be silent."  I didn't write here. I stayed away from most social media. Other than a few blessed conversations with a good friend, most of God's working in my heart was taking place in the secret and in quiet and like Mary in Luke 2, "[I] treasured all these things, pondering them in [my] heart."

However, Ecclesiastes says that there is a time for everything.  "A time to be silent and a time to speak."  And in searching my heart and praying and looking to the Lord for how He would have me use my time, thoughts, talents, and personality, I feel the freedom (and even the push) to once again start writing. To share with others the love I have for my family, the lessons God is teaching me as I embrace this role of motherhood, and to encourage those of you walking similar paths that the Lord is on your side and His plans for you are good, right, and perfect. I make so many mistakes as I seek to be the woman God created me to be, this mother He created me to be.  But if me sharing my failures, my successes, and the questions of my heart helps even one of you (and many of your so graciously have shared with me that they have), then I am willing to risk opening my heart (and the criticism that can come with it) in this little space of mine. I'd like to cower like Moses, but I will instead trust in the words of Amy Carmichael who said something along the lines of, "If God can make a donkey speak, then perhaps he can use me."

I'll be back in the not-too-distant future with more of an update on the last six months and what's happening now.  In the meantime, I'll just let you know that it's a boy and he's expected to make his appearance at the end of March!

15 thoughts on “A Time to be Silent

  1. Heather

    i’m so glad you’re back! I was just thinking that I hadn’t read anything from you for a very long time. I hoped all was well with your family. Congrats on baby #6. We have 5 and the thought of another is scary right now to me. But the Spirit whispers there is another little spirit waiting to join our family. Phew… perhaps in a few years when I am more healthy, emotionally & physically. sigh…

    Love this post!

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  2. Megan W.

    Congratulations! And welcome back. I’m glad I’m not the only one who has miserable pregnancies.

    I’ve missed your blogging, but totally understand that you need to take care of yourself and your family more than a blog. I appreciate that you always remind me where I should really be turning for all of my problems.

    Best of luck with the rest of this pregnancy! Number six has to be a little terrifying, but amazing to know that God trusts you with six of his precious little ones.

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  3. Rhadonda

    God’s timing is always perfect. I have been wondering about you. Wondered how your move went, what you have been up to. A new precious gift from God. How awesome!!! Looking forward to following you as you follow Christ and His prompting to share. Last year was a year of huge changes for us. God called us to northern Illinois as church planters after living in one place, pastoring one church for 16 years, longest in my life. God is at work, building up and tearing down. I agree with you, it is hard but i know it is rewarding as He always has His glory in mind and our best in the works. So great to hear you speak again!

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  4. Shannon

    I was so excited to see “Preparing the Soil” in my inbox this morning. I have missed your words of honesty and encouragement – very much looking forward to more!

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  5. Pam

    Exciting news!! Hoping all goes well! I am a highschool friend of Erika Gordon’s…I wrote to her not too long ago, wondering about you! I had been missing your writings, I can relate to so many of your thoughts, and think your blog is just great! Thank you for sharing! God Bless!!

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  6. Jeanann

    Congratulations! How wonderful, another boy! I come from a family of three boys and three girls too. I have five kids and having a full house was great ( I miss that now that the only one left home is my twelve year old). I look forward to more posts as I was worried that you might have left the world of blogging.

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  7. Jennifer

    Congrats!! Can’t wait to see how baby #6 will fit into your family!! Glad to hear you are all okay and looking forward to reading more of your posts soon!

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  8. Kellie

    Can’t wait to see/read what you have to share! I hope you are feeling better now and will be praying for safe and healthy delivery

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  9. Karen

    Congratulations on the coming addition! I was excited to see a new post, your words are always insightful and encouraging. Looking forward to what you have to share! Blessings!

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  10. Danielle

    I found your blog just before the holidays via a friend who uses your family night ideas… just wanted to drop in and say “thank you” for returning and for sharing yourself with us. Your words on motherhood are refreshing and encouraging to me and God is using you through this space. Look forward to more posts and pictures of that new sweet baby boy! *I’m a mom to 3 boys myself! They are so much fun!*

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