Before I get started: If you are a skimmer of blog posts (like I often am), scroll on down to the bottom where you will get to hear me!
I'll admit it. I am a slow writer. Very slow.
It takes me a long time to get started.
I do a lot of deleting.
I write and rewrite.
Then I wait.
Then I read it again and often delete the entire thing.
I write again. I edit again. I wait again.
And so on....ad nauseam.
Usually in the end, even if I ever do get to the point where I hit publish (and abut half the time I don't get to this point), I don't like it. It didn't sound the way I wanted it to. I feel that it lacks emphasis where needed and over emphasizes something I wasn't trying to say in the first place.
I am sure that with more practice and experience my writing will improve (both in content and in process). However, as a homeschooling mother of six getting ready for some major life changes, time is not something I envision myself having more of in the coming months.
And yet, my heart is so full. There are so many things that I want to share with other moms, things I want to talk through, truths I want to shout from the rooftops. I am also a verbal processor which means that when I try to explain something to others, it makes more sense to me. And so I don't want to hold back my words, especially for something like a lack of time.
And so I am going to try something different: I am going to do an audio post. I'm nervous about it. Even though I have considered it for months, I have shied away from it for all sorts of reasons that are ridiculous and in the end, self-centered. One thing that God has been teaching me is that worrying about what others think of you is a twisted and severe form of self-centerdness. If I care more about what some may think and what they will say (either to me or behind my back) more than I care about encouraging and building others up, I have a real problem.
And so, I will put myself out there. And I trust the Lord that my words—always prayerfully coming from Him,—will fall on hearts that need them. May we always use the word of God to build up the family of God.
If you enjoy this audio post, I'd love to know (either by commenting on the post or by email). I'd also love to know if there are improvements I could make. There is no fancy intro and outtro, so don't get your hopes up for a professional recording. I snuck these words in between my run with Caleb and running again with Alaina (why can't they get up at the same time??) You should be thankful it's not video (another option I considered briefly before resigning to the fact that you would get tired of seeing me in sweaty running clothes). If this format is something that people enjoy, I am happy to keep doing it. Other than the writing of this part (which I am desperately trying to keep short), the audio only took me ten minutes. That's the kind of time I do have. If things go well and this kind of post ministers to people, I will polish things up on the production side. I have the know-how, but let's wait to see what you think first.
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